Oct 28, 2017 Musings over the Atlantic-Boy is it ever esoteric up here!

1 AM mid Atlantic time. Saturday Oct 28th 2017

The air vents crackle crisp rerouted air, a welcome change from when we boarded the 767 in Toronto. We are on our way to Gatwick, London. The inaugural visit to the 3-D Printing Silicone Party, in London, England to see Sophie at the Alternative Limb Project.

We’re cruising at 39,000 feet routed a little farther North than unusual due to strong tail winds.

Most anyone with a right mind on this flight is asleep or trying mightily. After an inelegant climb over Chris to get to the washroom mid plane and much restlessness and ill ease (I’m nursing a nasty headache from the blue cheese that was on my Veggie Bowl right before we boarded) I tried to snuggle down again, if you could call it that, in that tiny seat. Sleep still evading me. Gawd I’m going to pay for that when we land! 

Chris was smart. She brought a travel pillow, Xanax and something else to help ease her into twilight. Me? I’m suffering…I’ll know better for next time; pack lean and mean, bring Tylenol, skip the migraine makers, simply gotta have a travel pillow.

 I started to review all that had brought me to this current moment in time. My dear sweet buddy Chris and I had agreed earlier that 4 years ago neither of us could have envisioned this moment in time, that’s for certain. No thought bore growth from any seed that I can remember that resembles what we are doing now. Though as I considered things further…

The long body of this airplane propelling us forward, intrepid travellers on an adventure of epic proportion. I lay there wide eyed and headachy…just letting it all settle in, cocooned in this vessel of the sky. Alone with my thoughts and at the same time feeling so drenched and cradled in love from all my dear friends, loved ones, supporters…and I cried…

With joy and some sadness. With heartfelt compassion for a little girls' heartbreak that can finally be met with care and love after so very many decades of hoping. Dreams dashed again and again, yet never giving up. Tears for the years gone by...the mystery of how we ever got here from point A, a way way over there, to point B a way way over here. Total mystery. Some have said a miracle is unfolding. Marlowe said it 1st last night. Susan echoed it this morning. If it is a miracle, it will be my 1st.  

Perhaps the miracle has been here all along but not seen for the struggle. Maybe the miracle is actually made up of everything….all the nasty bits and parts; the pain, the struggle. The momentum some years have had. The quietude and doldrums of inertia experienced on other years. What if the entirety of a life, my life has been a miracle? What if I’ve been living it from day 1 and just could never fit my mind into the epic-ness of its proportion? 

There go those tears again.  What if it’s my birthright? Some finality and rightness to something that seemed so wrapped up in wrongness for so long. Like a rose without symmetry, a sky that’s lost its curvature, a horizon lacking vision. Then a lifetime ensues trying to make it right. This journey feels like the “rightness” the universe has seen fit to deliver finally.

Lights are up in the plane. I’m rattled out of my philosophical swaddling. Chris sleeps on. I wish I had packed a toothbrush in my carry on. I know Chris did. Thick lipped and mouth dry...we’ll be landing soon.

Comments

  1. Meg22 November 2017 at 11:06

    Thank you for blogging this adventure and inviting us along! <3

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    1. Unknown22 November 2017 at 18:36

      Such a pure pleasure to have you here dearest Meg! <3

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  2. Unknown22 November 2017 at 16:17

    "Expect a Miracle!" was an expression of my mother that I loved...the hopefulness of it! The belief in it! We're holding it in our hearts for you!

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  3. Unknown22 November 2017 at 19:06

    I loved reading this blog, such an easy yet very imaginative narrative of the beginnings of a dream come true.
    From the sounds of the air exchanging in the vents on the plane, along with the awkwardness of climbing over your friend Chris sound asleep as you make your way to the washroom.
    I could picture it all within my minds eye including that little girl, how she must be smiling now knowing that her vision has never been lost and is in fact on its way to being fulfilled, a true miracle.
    The love you continue to give to others and inspiration that has come from your heart is what brings you here today.
    They speak of good things come to those who wait well here it comes.....
    May the fingers you create continue to touch the Souls of those in need
    May the Creator continue to bless you on your journey

    Much love and respect
    Marlowe ❤️

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    1. Unknown22 November 2017 at 19:45

      Such care and wisdom from such a loving and pure heart! What a beautiful synopsis that shows such depth of understanding; the kind that can only be hewn from ions of knowledge delivered from a high source over much time and space. You are just that blessed! With much love and respect right back <3

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  4. Susan Peirce Thompson22 November 2017 at 22:43

    I’m so excited to read this first post. It’s simply gorgeous. Pulled me right in. Can’t wait to keep reading. Such an exciting journey! I love the feeling of a lifetime, childhood yearning being finally fulfilled. A whole life coming full-circle. Such redemption. Such symmetry. Such heart-healing.

    I am so privileged to walk this journey with you.

    All my love,
    Susan

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    1. Unknown22 November 2017 at 22:59

      Oh Susan!!! Without your support absolutely none of this would have been possible! Not in any single way! Humanitarian, heart-a-tarian extraordinaire! Creator of beauty and light for so many. Such an honor to be travelling with you on this incredible journey. The privilege is all mine. xox

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  5. Marlys Geerlings23 November 2017 at 03:39

    As a fellow musician and Bright Lifer, I am so excited to read about this journey and support you!

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    1. Unknown23 November 2017 at 05:54

      Marlys cheers and greetings music lover and BLer! Loving you for your excitement and care! xox

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  6. pami23 November 2017 at 03:59

    Dearest Linden, I wasn't able to give enough to sign your official card, gave what I could. I am so happy that this is happening for you. I so wish for healing of your heart and soul. You are such an inspiration for me and all of us in BLE. Your Partner in Wellness, PAMI

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    1. Unknown23 November 2017 at 05:57

      AwwhhhhPami! Thank you for your sweet reflections and tender care. I think you may click on the card and go ahead and sign anyways if you like! <3

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  7. Dorleen McBride23 November 2017 at 07:33

    Linden...You have been a guiding, supportive part of BLE for so many and to me, a rebellious and resistant BLer, the epitome of a devoted and truly caring humanitarian. It has been a joy to listen to your responses on the Coaching calls...such wisdom, love and caring comes across from you.
    I am thrilled that you are finally realizing your life long dreams. Best of success in this journey.

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    1. Unknown23 November 2017 at 08:10

      Dorleen, Its so wonderful to hear from you and thank you so much for your well wishes! >3

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  8. Unknown23 November 2017 at 09:20

    Happy Thanksgiving, Linden. It's exciting and an honor to be a part of this.

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  9. Harriet Bertsche23 November 2017 at 14:00

    Linden, I'm fairly new to BLE, but I have already felt your strong influence. I'm excited to be a tiny part of your journey, and I will follow along with your blog. I know that you will get there with this generous and amazing group of friends. XXOO

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    1. Unknown25 November 2017 at 11:02

      Harriet thanks for following and thank you for your support! <3

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  10. Linda Gutierrez25 November 2017 at 07:04

    Linden, I have been on BLE for over a year and half, but you won't see me too much on Facebook. I am one of the introverts. I did meet you at the reunion and you graciously signed my book. Your story brings up emotions that its hard to even type this without tearing up, so I just had to wish you the best and will continue to follow your journey.

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    1. Unknown25 November 2017 at 11:10

      Linda Im so happy you are going to be hanging here with us all on this journey! Thank you for your support! :-)

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  11. Anonymous25 November 2017 at 07:11

    Wow, wonderful words! Safe travels, Linden. So grateful you are sharing your journey with us. Miracles are all around. Treasure them. Who knew the Power in those first 4 Bright Lines? Good growth possibilities are everywhere now. Love, peace & joy as you creatively move forward to bless teens in the years to come! You are indeed a BLE Rockstar!

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    1. Unknown25 November 2017 at 12:48

      It takes a Rockstar to know a Rockstar Anon!!! Thank you for your kind words and being a part of this Miracle! <3

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  12. ChrisH25 November 2017 at 07:35

    Dear Linden, I love everything about this project! The caring, the art, your loving responses, the generosity, the art, and how it feels in me. This is the world I want to live in. Chris Hegge

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    1. Unknown25 November 2017 at 12:49

      And here you are Chris! So great to read your reflections. <3

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  13. Susanna Antolainen26 November 2017 at 13:45

    I'm reading this crying happy tears for you, for all of us who get to share
    this journey with you and for the youngsters who may get a new limb
    in the future.
    There is so much misery and unhappiness in the world. It feels so good
    to be part of something that changes things for the better. It fills me with hope.
    When good people get together and care for and support each other anything
    is possible. This we can see every day in the BLE online support community.
    It's the same thing here.
    I'm so grateful that Susan made this vlog and let us be part of making your
    dream come true.

    God bless!


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    1. Unknown29 November 2017 at 14:41

      Thank you Susanna for your thoughtful reflections and heart. And a huge thank you for being part of the Miracle! :-)

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  14. Harriet Bertsche27 November 2017 at 09:26

    I'm so happy to be a part of your journey, Linden. I'm new to BLE, but already i have felt your influence. You are such a big part of BLE. Bless you and love, Harriet

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    1. Unknown29 November 2017 at 14:41

      Oh Harriet, you are so kind!!!! Sending much Love xox

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  15. Brenda Kowk27 November 2017 at 11:56

    I believe that this marvellous gracious act of bravery will be the final healing to your little girl that was sad lonely and felt different. This is a wonderful example of jumping and growing your wings on the way down. You are an inspiration!

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    1. Unknown29 November 2017 at 14:43

      Brenda, you described the journey perfectly. I am so grateful for the part you are playing in this most healing journey! <3

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  16. debi440x4 December 2017 at 11:50

    Aww, Linden, you don't know me, but you have touched my heart. From the moment I heard your loving voice on the coaching call, I knew I was in the presence of a being who is delivered here to fulfill all the aching motherless hearts, like mine. Listening to you has been such a comfort and a joy that I can't really explain--like a warm, fuzzy blanket on a cold day. My heart and love goes out to you and this beautiful dream of yours that is finally coming true. I am so honored to have been asked to support you! xoxoxo

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    1. Unknown6 January 2018 at 08:35

      How sweet and kind of you Debi440x! Do stay tuned! Thank you from the depths of my being. for your support. xox <3

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